Do No Harm: Us "autists" don't do it for the "I told you so"
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liberty54
 May 26 2023
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    I like this picture. It's obviously of a surgeon, but I think it's equally as applicable to other healthcare workers. It helps for me to re-visualize my hardest days and nights in the hospital with the presence of some spiritual assistance rather than being alone :)

    However, here I think it represents spiritual, or rather, MORAL guidance (do no harm).


    My mom gave me a little bit of delayed validation today, something that doesn't happen very often. I'm no longer irresponsible and stupid in her eyes concerning a particular poke that was highly encouraged just a few months back. My own parents and grandmothers "went with the crowd," as a lot of people did during the pandemic. I'm not shaming anyone or blaming people for doing what seemed necessary at the time. My dad hasn't experienced any negative consequences (that we know of), but my mom is currently experiencing something odd, a sort of "chronic conjunctivitis." Her PCP states that this is something that she has seen quite often, something "they say" is associated with the poke. Her PCP sent her home with an antibiotic and a steroid just a few days ago.

    Today, my mom went to a routine visit to her cardiologist. She has a pacemaker placed because of some sort of electrical issue with her heart since toddlerhood. I won't go into details, but don't even get me started on the "why" behind her condition. They don't really know. However, words like "Sudden" and "Idiopathic" are all too suspicious nowadays.

    Anyway, the cardiologist she goes to I particularly like because he also teaches philosophy and theology classes at a private school in town (he's well-rounded). In fact, he teaches some sort of morality class (after doing some research myself), of all things.

    I guess my mom brought me up in conversation and I was actually surprised that she felt comfortable enough with him to share my blacksheep opinions. She put it all out there! And what's odd is (and this is coming from a highly respected cardiologist in my hometown)...he agreed. He said what we are all thinking-and what we were thinking prior (It's not a real poke in the definition-gene therapy, people are dying, we are supposed to question things in medicine, etc.). He even joked, "That's what I need, nurses and mid-levels that think like that. She can work for me."

    On a much sadder note, this sort of validation isn't helpful. I pray I won't lose family members and friends prematurely because of this. This was LARGELY experimental and it's truly making people sick. This is no longer a "conspiracy theory" based on my own mother's doctor's comments that hardly scream "safe and effective." Just like with equally experimental "gender-affirming" care. Truth-tellers, autistics, whatever we are, we don't want to be be "right." I think, sometimes, we'd rather be crazy.

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